Monday, June 21, 2010


today we were reminded about what we already knew......God is in control and is our Heavenly Father, yet life without Thomas will never be the same for my children. the loss they feel is intense. they miss him so very much. we are at times frozen in grief and it hurts when HE continues to pry our fingers off the grief. we recognize how many people have experienced this same pain of loss. letting go is not easy. grateful we have the many memories of a man who loved his children more than himself. thank you Jesus even for this sorrow.

Saturday, June 5, 2010


Today, at 6:05 PM, 28 years ago, my father walked me down the aisle at crestmont christian and missionary alliance church in aliquippa, pa to meet my soon to be companion for life, Thomas.

today i spent my first anniversary without him. i lit our memory candle and put our wedding album out. my children stayed with me all day and prepared a nice dinner. we had thomas' favorite dessert, strawberries and angel food cake.

as i looked through the album i noticed those who have gone on. a beloved aunt, a cousin, pastor
mock who married us and now my sweetheart. my throat aches with the memories. i cannot take thomas' hand and grow old with him, yet i can begin to become more grateful for the years we did have.